(Heads up – the beginning of this post is a lot of typing. If you don’t like whining, you should probably skip this part.)
I had a bad day today. You might not think that this fact is worth advertising, but it is because I almost never have days like this. I’m a naturally happy, perky, and optimistic person. I don’t often let things get me down but, if they do, it’s very easy for me to get back into my good mood. I don’t want you to think that I just hide my feelings, though. If something is bothering me, or if I’m sad, I don’t feel uncomfortable expressing myself to my friends, family, or boyfriend. I’m just a happy person! What can I say?
But, today I was not happy. And it was kind of freaking me out. It is not very often that I’m in a grumpy mood (usually it’s only one or two days a month ).
Here’s the story…
Our neighbor that lives directly behind us (like our bedroom window is literally 2 feet from their backyard) has a car that malfunctions constantly. And by “malfunctions” I mean – the car alarm goes off all the freaking time. Back in June, there were two weeks that it went off at least twice a day. Sometimes for a minute or two, other times for up to 20 minutes. We didn’t have any problem with it at all during July, so I assumed that they’d gotten the car fixed.
I was wrong.
Between 3am and 5am this morning, it went off FOUR times. The last time, it went off for so long that Brent and I just had to eventually get up, and then we called the police. But, of course, five seconds later it shut off on its own.
I felt so horrible for Brent. On Saturdays, he has to get up at 6am to go to work. So being woken up at 5am out of the blue was not very nice. But I also felt bad for me, too. If you’ve been reading my blog throughout the past week, you’ll remember that I’ve been having a really bad case of insomnia lately. It’s been keeping me up all night – a few days ago I didn’t fall asleep until eleven o’clock in the morning. Finally, I decided yesterday that enough was enough. I hopped into bed at 10pm and took a sleeping pill, vowing to wake up early and set my normal sleep schedule back to normal. I finally fell asleep around 12:30am and had a great sleep… until, ya’ know, the freaking car alarm went off ALL NIGHT LONG and I finally woke up for good at 5am.
I was not a happy camper.
Brent left for work a little while later, and I made myself get out of bed. I cooked up some soft-boiled eggs for breakfast again, but I still couldn’t fall back asleep after. Around 12pm I finally passed out for four hours. Even though I got a nap, I’ve had this pounding headache for the past three days from lack of sleep and it did not go away. And now I’m beyond pissed because my sleep schedule is probably screwed up again forever after I tried so hard to fix it.
Around 6:30pm I baked myself some delicious salmon using this recipe. Getting some food in my belly did help a bit. What a gorgeous piece of fish, no?
I was still kind of hungry after and ended up having some cheese and crackers. I got full while I was eating and only had about 1 oz of the cheese and half the crackers there. I’ve really been trying to listen to my body’s cues lately. I’m glad I didn’t just eat the rest of them “just because they were there.” I’ve definitely been guilty of that in the past. Is that something you struggle with, too?
After having such a crappy day, I decided to make brownies for myself and Brent. In the past, I’ve struggled with the whole eating-food-to-fix-problems thing, but I’ve been working on it lately. This is the first time in months that I’ve done something like this. Good for me!
The bad news is that I had this piece of brownie (with vanilla frosting, don’t judge!) and immediately felt so sick after. I guess my body is just not used to all that refined sugar, chocolate, and calories anymore. Which is definitely a good thing! An awesome thing! I’m proud of myself for making lean meats and vegetables a habit and a lifestyle. Do rich desserts bother your stomach, too?
This whole thing is also very weird, though. I used to have a really bad problem with binging in high school, so it kind of freaks me out that just a small piece or two of brownie now has the power to make me that nauseous. But, in a good way? Haha. I guess it’s kind of interesting (and by interesting, I mean “confused” and “annoyed” ) to me that I now weigh about 35 pounds more than I did in high school, yet I am and I feel so much healthier.
Do we really have to do this? Today sucked. It might end up being my splurge half-day this week.
Healthy Goals Checklist
- At least 100g of protein. No check. I had 83.5. Pretty good, but could’ve been a lot better.
- At least 4 servings of fruits/veggies. No check. Can you believe this? I had ZERO servings yesterday. Ugh. It was really that bad.
- No more than one treat. Check! Had a brownie. It made me sick. Kind of ruined the whole point of having a treat, but oh well.
- Exercise and/or stretch. Check! Even though I felt like crap, I did make an effort to stretch before bed for about 20 minutes. I want to eventually be able to do a split!